Reliving...

May nabasa akong note ng isang kaibigan ko sa Facebook nung huling araw niya sa work niya (I used to work there too) and di ko alam i-explain pero nakaramdam ako ng lungkot kasi I realized na I was always surrounded by wonderful individuals. Naisip ko bigla na I missed out yung maaring experiences, kwentuhan, tawanan at minsan kalungkutan. Kaya nga I always remind myself:

Looking Back

"NEVER BURN BRIDGES"

Gusto ko I share this time ang nakaraan ko. Reliving the past 5 years of my life. 

Bakit five years ago lang?

Para sa akin the past 5 years was the most turbulent times of my life. Lahat ng bagay dito ko naranasan para akong NAGCRASH COURSE ng REALITIES OF LIFE. 

Twitter Addiction

Natuto akong MAGSOCIALIZE... (Medyo introverted kasi ako, panahong Twitter Addict ako!)

Natuto akong MAGTRAVEL... (Marami marami narin ang napuntahan ko. I traveled almost all around the Philippines already)

Natuto akong MAGAPPRECIATE... (Hindi kasi ako vocal dati and laging nagiging problema ko yan with my friends)

NTRL Days, Circa 2009

Lastly, Natuto akong MAINLOVE... (School-Bahay lang kasi ako, I was so focused on providing myself a better future)

I graduated by the age of 20. I remember as I passed my Licensure Exam for Medical Technology, di ako umattend ng Oath taking kasi since I'm young wala akong marereceive na certificate.

Sino nga magaakala na after posting the result. I immediately have a Job. My first work was at RITM at the Virology Department. It was just a short 4 month stay kasi I was attracted to a department just a building away: National Tuberculosis Reference Laboratory.

Hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ang workplace na ito kasi it was the reason bakit may inclination ako sa research. Sobrang naopen ang mind ko na di lang pangHospital ang Med. Tech. Masaya yung mga travel ko sa different Philippine provinces. It was here na una akong nakaapak sa Mindanao and see my dream city to be which was Davao.

Wacky Moments with the CHD Officers

 Working at the a National Reference Laboratory has its nice perks, you get to have a lot of meetings with various regional heads. You get to meet people heading various government programs and monitoring the situation. Nakakatuwa isipin na ganito pala ang ways ng pagcollect ng data, mga difficulties na encounter mo sa field, and mga situations na mahirap resolbahin. I learned how to cope up with various people kaya nga siguro minsan I feel comfortable kahit kanino mo ako isama.

The first group I supervised

I will also never forget and panahong naging trainer ako ng mga future TB Scientists. I was just 21 then and considering ang mga tuturuan ko ay sobrang older sa akin. Panahong shaky ang boses, nanginginig ang buong katawan at pilit kinakalma ang sarili. I truly appreciated the staff of NTRL kasi they were there to support and guide you. They train us and ito ang fruit ng kanilang labor. This was the first time I knew that besides researching, I can also share my knowledge via teaching.

ALPHA - OMEGA

BEGINNING - END

Our first experiment together

We always here those words during the Easter Mass. Sa lahat ng simula ay may katapusan. June 2010 I decided to leave NTRL, mabigat man sa loob ko kasi I wanna pursue a graduate degree. I felt that need to improve my career. It was through the help of Frederick Masangkay who gave me powerful advice to push through with this. Nakakatuwa isipin na I would enter my dream university way back in high school. UP-Diliman.

Dito ko nameet sina Annie, Magie, Meg, Wik and Shiela. Nakakatuwa kasi I'm surrounded by these smart individuals having the same passion as I do for Microbiology.

I rekindled with my studious self when I entered again in school however, not everything was smooth sailing...

First ever tweetup

During my graduate school days, naopen ang mind ko to social media. Mayroon na akong Facebook and Twitter nung 2009 pero 2010 ako naging super active considering I had my first iPhone back then (well till now iPhone user parin ako). Sobrang inocente ako sa social networks considering that I really prefer personal conversations than virtual ones kasi parang FAKE since di mo nakikita ang body actions ng kausap mo.

Well, I must say I had to take my last statement back kasi I was really addicted to twitter for quite some time. Nakakabilis pala ng puso and very exciting makipagusap sa iba't ibang tao. I remember my first group hashtag was #SOULFAMILY kasi sila yung lagi kong kausap almost everyday. We talk of random stuff, showbiz, people, news and obviously personal stuff.

As my network grew, the influence has become so addictive na I usually have the phone on my hand every time not minding sa data charges ko (wala pang supersurf dati 60Hours of surf lang ang libre sa plan ko before sa Globe). I met a lot of cool individuals made really good friends na I don't think I won't have if I didn't used Twitter.

#SuperUBE

 I had a couple of groups after #soulfamily, nandiyan ang:

#gyteam
#CoronLovies
#SuperUBE
#PiscesBabies
#alammona
#Researchers
#Instagrammers (I used to be a part of them till I decided to Disconnect)

I will never forget the moments I had with these different sets of people kasi they have served as my friend and support throughout my Manila days. I will never forget the Till Morning activities.

Random Meetups (Early Morning)

Mga panahong magkikita kayo sa sunset then suddenly uwian na pag may araw and minsan may times na diretcho ako ng school and work (Lesson Learned).

Travel to Coron with my #CoronLovies

Nakaktuwan rin alalahanin ang mga taong nagpatibok ng puso mo through this means, to be honest my past three relationships came from this means. I discovered how jealous I am as a partner and how forgiving I can be also. Sa totoo lang I think on this department hindi pa ganun kalaki ang changes ko till now.

Of course, having friends of the same faculty of interest has it's advantages. You get to do a lot compared to others. I love travelling and the most beautiful place I've been through was at Coron, Palawan with my #CoronLovies. If Paradise exist, I consider this travel destination my little taste of paradise. 

HOT AIR BALLOONS!

Those big balloons that are fired up to make them rise! That activity I had with my

Hot Air Balloons

#SuperUBE was one of those I consider once in a lifetime experience. I remember we just schedule the trip just days before the start of the activity with no definite plan. All of us agreed that this would just be a day trip and who guessed that besides us I would also meet some twitter users around the area. Sabi nga ng isa kong friend: "TWEETUP NA!!!!"

Months after I decided to close my doors to everyone since I wanna exert effort on the person I am in love with during those moments. It was during this time that I started to notice that people truly come and go. It was most difficult for me since I know I am afraid to be alone and this way of thinking has haunted me until this day.

In 2012, I decided to give Laguna a try. This was the time I decided to work in a Hospital considering I was very decisive on my decision before of not working in a clinical setting since I knew I wasn't my calling...

"It was not really my calling."

On Field at Gingoog City

I met a lot of good friends during my brief work however, since I've become pessimistic of my condition wherein I knew eventually people would just leave me behind. I, started to diminish my social interaction with my fellow coworkers. I knew then that this was not right yet I acted without mindful thinking.

#BR pis

I left as a new opportunity came, a field work with FNRI-DOST. The brief 6 month field work is one that I considered the most educating experience I had so far. Living with the same people at a nomadic setup was really challenging. Your in a group of individuals without any known background and you discover them as you push through the journey.

Di siya smooth sailing for me, yet beyond that I've come to realize and discover things about myself na di ko matututunan sa iba pang paraan.

God has given me very hard learned lessons so far. Yung iba di ko parin maexplain bakit nangyari pero I know malalaman ko ang reasons behind then in the future.

So far masasabi ko I had a blessed life, the same as I see all the people around me. Lahat tayo ay BLESSED! I guess it's just on how we see it. Sometimes we delve much on the negative stuff not thinking of all the good things that has happened so far.

Enjoying this STILL moment

Yes I did have regrets. Yet, that's it nalang just REGRET because I have come at peace with myself that what we only need to do is to remove those bandages in our life and discover that whatever we did in the past has already healed.

The only thing we need top be reminded of is the memories we had and RELIVING those memories to be our reminder and guide of the things set to happen in the near future.